When you walk into a hospital, what do you expect to see? From what you see, what do you feel? Plenty times we are struck with incidents where we are forced to visit the ones we care for in a hospice. However, there are also times when we are there to witness the birth of a new life. We fill ourselves with joy, sadness, and grief when we take a visit to the ward.
Aside from your love ones, try to take a trip to that place that many fear as time catches up. Observe with your heart, the sufferings of any random strangers you witness. Likewise, observe also those with celebratory mood. Now that you took a trip to ‘feel-land’, did you hear a little voice of you trying to explain to yourself what you witnessed, and ways to comprehend to such a view?
That is your conscience. Know it, recognize it, befriend it. It is what that defines your humanity.
Now that you know what defines your humanity, observe beyond the hospitals, the wards, the nursery, and the sick beds. Shift your attention instead to the world atlas. Wonder why do we constantly check on the world map when we have studied so hard for our geography examinations, and yet still not able to tell if a certain country exists or still exists? – or why is it unable for you to tell exactly if which nation runs a specific territory when you just saw it last year? – Because empires and nations alike, they rise, and they fall.
This process of creation and destruction is not, however, any tender compared to mother nature. This process, comes with the expense of war.
War that many fought for freedom, for their rights, for revolutions that they believe is for a greater good. These wars, causes lives.
Now, let’s go back to the part where you were standing – the hospital. As you see these strangers suffering in one corner, and at the other corner, strangers celebrating the gift of life, Find a mirror, and look into it. What you realize now is you wearing the uniform you often find pride in. The uniform tailor-made in honor for you as you pay your greatest service for your country. In your hands, a nice manufactured carbine rifle. A state of the art weapon, at your disposal. Given to you to fend your nation off threats.
Now, there’s a catch. All the ones you see in the hospital, are your enemies. Orders were, for you to eliminate all possible threats. Possible threat from a sick patient now that may rise against your country one day, or a little innocent infant that may grow up to be an enemy soldier. All these possibilities, are however a fear. A fear based on the cowboy law of, ‘if you do not kill, you will be killed’.
Ask your conscience now. Is it still the same as before? Untainted, humanely normal and full of compassion? Many have decided to carry on their duties, which may sound prideful and patriotic. But was it worthwhile?